2 things today.

1) I've been reading Popagandhi.com for the past few days.

In my current obsessive "wanting to get out of Singapore and live abroad" mindset, I've been laying my hands, and eyes, on travellogues and travelblogs. Just to get a glimpse of life overseas, imagining myself there too.

It has come to a point that I don't care if I move to some third-world country, as long as I'm out of here. I know I sound like some irritating brat who kononnya travels the world (which I don't, because I'm not rich like that, haha) but gawd I feel so miserable here.

It's not the job, because I love my job and my colleagues. It's just everthing else. Escaping is word, I think.

I don't want my son - the sole motivation for most of the things I do now - to grow up being all stressed out by the education system, and to lose out or feel ashamed just because he has a diploma instead of a degree, or for being in a normal school instead of some elite school and such. For being in a normal PAP school instead of some Montessori. HAHA.

Yes he's only 1 yr 2 months old, and I'm already worrying about that.

Schooling aside, I also want to escape for selfish reasons. So selfish that I'm embarassed to share them with you. Haha.

Oh btw, did you read the article about the Health Minister wanting Singaporeans who can't afford healthcare, to move to nursing homes in JB? That's how much they care for you when you are no longer the workhorse useful for making Singapore's economy grow.

I need a place to breathe. That sounds like something a yoga/ashram/hippie person would say, but I mean it. I NEED a place to breathe. Every morning on the way to work, when I'm riding pillion on my husband's bike, I face the sea at the ECP and think hmmm further down that sea, is Indonesia. Abit further down is Australia. A bit more further down, NZ. Somewhere out there is also India, Maldives, Morocco, and lots of other gorgeous places. Yes my mind wanders crazy when I'm doing nothing.

This entry is really not proving a point, other than me wanting to tell you all that I want to move out of SG.

Ok, on to Point 2.

2) This is my current obsession. Halo by Beyonce. I'm trying my best to memorise the lyrics.. just because. Haha. It's currently on repeat mode on my ipod.

I love this song so much. Gawd. Oh muchmuchlove to Aisyah for downloading the song and transferring it to my iphone too!

We heard the song on that clip on TV, telling us to watch Unaccessedsomethingsomething or something (forgot the title of the show) the one with Wong Lilin crying.

Speaking of crying, did you watch Lifewatch last night? The premature baby who had needles stuck into his arm? GAWD my heart ached so much seeing that, and I was so thankful, seriously Syukur Alhamdulillah for my healthy babyHyder.

It was true what the baby's mom said - this is something you can feel only if you are a mother. And while I'm not Zion's mom, I still felt the same sadness and such hopes for him to survive.

Oh, it also made me want to have another baby again because all these tiny babies are SO adorable, but we all know it is totally NOT the right time now. HAHA.