Woah sorry for the long disappearance. That is if anyone is still reading this. It has been a busy couple of weeks - I grew a year older last week, and we went to the zoo, and to the airshow, and we put up lots of frames in our house, and in the midst of all that, we also had to go to work, and eat, and sleep. So yeah, 24 hours in a day doesn't really seem enough sometimes.

To add some funkiness to that list, I would like to share with you some of my journal entries that I had in 2000. 10 long years ago, when I was at the SUPER virginal age of 17. Haha.

My online friend Becca found it, and passed the link to me, and needless to say, I will NOT be sharing the link with you.

Instead I shall post up bits and pieces. Because it's SO embarassing, I can't believe the stuff I said back then, and oh my email address 10 years ago was apparently chatoad@hotmail.com. I don't even remember having that email address. Haha. WHAT THE HELL IS A CHATOAD????

02 May 2000
But when I saw that bitch, I saw what she was wearing too. And I saw through her. That sounds so cliché, but true. I saw through her. She was wearing the same skirt as I was! And to add salt to the wound, she wore a tube top and those transparent-ish bra-strap and a black tote bag too.

She's flat, what's she doing in a tube??!!!

And she looks at Jay in this weird way, like she's a dog and Jay is her master. When my couz asked "So are you hungry?" to Jay, SHE answered "I'm not, but Jay is." Like she's the wife!!! I couldn't stand it. And she had this FAKE plastic smile on her face.

Woah, such anger! Haha. Bitch I was referring to, even went on to become a TV star actress on Channel 5, acting on a teen show, can't remember what. I hated that show back then, and HATED her for being on the show. Haha. Such teenage angst!

15 September 2000
OK, so the point is: Let's all try to live in peace, shall we? Let's accept the next person like our fellowmen, and let's look beyond colour, religion, race, origin, and peel away those layers of security we have around us, and then we'll truly see who that person beside us is. Becoz each person is as interesting as the next, and God didn't spend a little more time on any of us (although N'Sync might not agree. Hehe..)

Let's all accept one another, and help each other, and realise that there's always someone much superior than you are. No one is more inferior than you are, but there are people (and God) who are more, much much more superior than you are.

**sigh**

I just have thoughts about all this, that it's hard to say, bcoz it's a very sensitive topic.

Haha. Tak tahu apa lagi nak comment about this.

15 May 2000
I'm soooo sleepy!! I woke up at 7am today, usually I wake up at 11am, since I'm not schooling at the moment (it starts July) becoz I had to go register at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, and I went alone, bcoz none of my friends are going there. Well, there are, but they aren't close to me, we are just acquaintances. Lixia and Fatimah are in the same course (accountancy) and Han and Debbie (and Sharon) are going to Mass Communications and Film, Sound and Video (FSV) and Fiq is there, he'll be second year already when I'm a freshman. Fiq is in Mechanical Engineering I think.

So just now I went alone, went through the registration, and stuff like that, and then I got my NPNet account, my PE tshirt (which is terribly UGLY!!) and my Freshman Orientation Camp (FOC) tshirt, which was nicer, and a pair of black shorts, and some other free goodies and stuff, like sanitary pads (?!) and Smint sweets, and a Sony bag, and a file, and some other stuff....which made it all very...annoying bcoz I had to carry them home, 3 big paperbags, and a Sony bag (this ugly bag saying "My Personal Obsession" ??!!), so I dumped everything into my bag, and it made it soo heavy and I had to walk bending slightly to the front (hehe) and I still had to carry a Pacific Net paperbag in my hand. I had to go through this winding place, which was littered with ECA things, camps and stuff. ECA is extra-curricular-activities. Fiq is in track.

So I met Fiq, and he followed me around, which was terribly sweet of him, bcoz I was totally alien to that place. And then after the whole procedure of making my student pass, and my bus pass, and whatever other passes there are, and I had to proceed back to the ECA place, where I signed up for Adventure Seeker's Club and also Touch Rugby.

HAHAHA. So cool. Ngee Ann Poly orientation and stuff. I remember feeling so DAMN adult on that day.

The guy who wanted to get to know me the other day (wed) at Tampines Mall, Fahmi, I think that's his name, he beeped me yesterday, and I thought he has a very nice voice.

That was a very funny time, let me tell you what happened...

Fahmi's friend, he said "excuse me." But I was too involved in this story that I was telling Farah that I didn't hear anything else.

Then farah stopped me in the middle of the road, (there were no cars approaching Thank God!!) and this guy said "hey, my friend there wants to get to know you." I was surprised bcoz I didn't notice anyone looking at me at all. So I had to cross over and talk to them, and they took down my beeper number, and then we parted, and yesterday he voicemailed me, and I thought he had a nice voice. **grins**

I told ka/m/al that a guy wanted to get to know me yesterday (when he came online for a while ) and he told me "Shida you never know what kind of guy he is. He could be taking advantage of your appearance." (HUH??!!) That goes for any guy on the streets too, isn't that right??? That was one thing that made me pissed. Like I said already, K/a/mal is trying to rule my life, he's bloody shit possesive or whatever you call it, and I hate him for doing that!!

Serious, aku tak faham what's with all this angst. And Fahmi?? I don't remember talking to a guy named Fahmi at all, EVER in my life. Hahahah.

And best post of all, dated 26th May 2000 -

To those who read my journal, do you think I'm childish or juvenile-thinking? Please email me at chatoad@hotmail.com if you think so. Thanks!

Yours truly,
NURSHIDA (miss)

ps : A good website: www.wheeloffortune.com
Try playing this game, it's soo much fun!!

HAHAHAHHAAH IT'S BEYOND CHILDISH, miss NURSHIDA. Tak boleh take it seh, serious.

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