My daughter is currently sleeping with her legs hanging off the bed. 

My son is in school and will be back in about 2 hours.  My husband is at work.

I have (kinda) made the decision to really leave my old company.  I discussed a few things with my husband, basically I told him I kinda feel mendak right now, because I'm not really learning anything, or doing anything good with my life.  I have worked there for 10 years and I don't really feel helpful to society, haha. 

He asked me what are my plans.  I told him either take up some courses, study.. that kind of stuff.  And then when the kids are much bigger, maybe teenagers or something haha, I have relevant certs and can go back to work.

Yes, of course I can take up these courses if I'm working also lah, but I will have much lesser time to spend with my kids, which is the priority right now.

The only problem is that my interests feel SO diversified.  I want to take up courses in art stuff, like typography, art designs (ye-ye orh! hahahaha) or social work / counselling stuff.  Ok la, in words it doesn't feel that diversified, but I feel mcm it is lah. 

Course funding is an issue especially if I'm not working.  I don't really feel like I layak to use any of his money to fund MY education, I would rather put it into my kids' education.  So I'm looking up grants and sponsorships and whatever, and hohmaygawd it is confusing! 

Anddddd this is not even my Plan A. 

Hoh well.

// lately my posts ending all very abrupt ah hahaha.

Next year Insha'Allah we will have at least one more addition - Maria is expecting and due to give birth in Oct, so next year more meriah Insha'Allah!






This is by far the nicest picture we have of all of us, I think! 

Sigh, such fun lah.  It's so cute how there's 4 kids in the group now!  BUT we need more boys so ladies, please do your thanggggg.  Hahah! 

// all pictures stolen from Mazee's IG! 

Mummy, you dah kawin???  (super-incredulous tone)

Ya, of course.  Baba is my suami.  That's why I have you.

So, means you kawin lagi when you have adik??? 

Books that I intend to buy sometime soon, if I can't find them in my new favourite hangout - the library, haha!

Sue Townsend - The Woman Who Went to Bed for a Year
John Green - Looking for Alaska

I recently bought Revenge Wears Prada, but it's not as good as The Devil wears Prada.  This sequel is abit too slow, and just so .. meh.

I borrowed 3 books from the library just now, and I just bought 2 books off bookdepository which are being shipped to me now as we speak.  In the midst of TRYING TO FIND TIME TO READ, I also have to teach Hyder how to read using his I Can Read screener and code card and all that,  and teach him iqra', and read his library books to him and his sister also, and do his Primary School introduction books... on top of the usual household chores. 

Some of you might go heyyy I'm a housewife too, and yet I am not as busy as you make it sound, surely you are exaggerating.  Maybe, or maybe not.  Maybe I just have extremely bad time management (I do have that, I admit)  I also tend to have lazy days where I just mope around watching endless Nick Jnr with the kids beside me. 

Maybe I'm just a super unmotivated person, haha. 

SO JUDGE ME NOT and I won't judge u also. 

Actually no lah I'm one of the least judgemental people I know, unless you do something that really pisses me off, then I tend to be all sarcastic and spiteful and just grrrrrr angry and refuse to budge sort of thing.  Sounds so juvenile, but argh I .. I just don't know how to VENT about this without giving away too much info and without sounding like a total youngster haha! 

But I have to say, I'm not exactly a total bad parent of the year gitu tau.  The Husband and I always discuss about our kids, and I always tell him, I don't ask for much from my kids, I just want them to be good Muslims, with full of taqwa and iman, and as a bonus, please hafal Al-Quran (AMIN!)  so that the Husband and I have an express ticket to Jannah... amin amin amin! 

But SG education system and stuff sometimes get in the way and that is why I put Hyder in I Can Read (and finding more supplementary classes to put him into also, hahah KIASU OR WHATTTT) coz I am just so scared he will be left behind.  Being a parent in SG is not easy!  ME NO LIKEY!

// abrupt end coz I suddenly realise it's 1.17AM and I'm suddenly sleepy.  Selamat malam semua.

It's time for the garbled mintak-maaf speech (Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir batin, halalkan kalau terkasar bahasa, tersinggung perasaan, maafkan, makan minum....errr...) the awkward salam rejections (to people who aren't muhrim), the giving out green packets, finding colour-coordinated outfits for the whole family, and basically mengeratkan silaturrahim! 

I wanted to lose lots of weight in time for hari raya so that no one would ask me if I'm pregnant...

... but I didn't manage to do so.  Hahahaha.  But heyyyy no one asked me that question - I think everyone finally accepted that I'm just fat and happy, haha. 

My parents weren't in SG during the first 2 days of Eid.  Alhamdulillah they went for umrah akhir Ramadhan, so this is my first time everrrrr cooking a full meal for Hari Raya, and hooooh boyyyy was I stressed or what!! 

Alhamdulillah I managed to cook lodeh (instant), rendang daging (instant) and ayam sambal (not instant, and taste oh so good!)  Husband cooked ketupat the old fashioned way, with arang and all, based on my father's instructions, and Alhamdulillah menjadi jugak.  In the midst of all this ,we also painted that green wall to white, and changed curtains and sofa covers.  Husband had taken 3 days leave from work and as we all know, I'm now a housewife, so that's why macam rajin sikit. 

It was tiring like mad though.  We had about 6 hours of sleep total, in 3 days... so yeah.  I celebrated hari raya with eyebags, not handbag, HA. HA.

Sooooo ok lah.  Selamat Hari Raya again, may all our ibadah in Ramadhan be accepted by Allah swt, and may we meet the next one Insha Allah. 

Sent my parents off for their Umrah akhir Ramadhan.  Veryvery happy for them, but oh I so wish we are going too.  Rindu sangat with Makkah and Madinah, and I want so much for my kids to visit these holy places too. 

"I told Teacher Siti I kena balik cepat today, because buka is at 7." - Hyder told me this when he alighted from the school van just now.

Mind u, his school hours are at 8am til 11am only. Balik cepat nak buat apa eh kat rumah? Hahah. 

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Happy fasting, you all.  May this Ramadhan be better than the past Ramadhans, and may all our ibadah be accepted by Allah swt!  Amin!